oughts, shoulds, musts

funny the things you think about late at night

when really you ought to be asleep

"ought" is an odd word

suggesting actions one might (have) take(n): it's very similar to "must" and "should"

the things that don't necessarily feel right, but you ought / must / should "do" them anyway

not necessarily within your comfort zone, but probably "good" things to do

there is a phrase "needs must", isn't there

it always makes me think of doing things that you might not do in other circumstances (well, I don't mean "you" exactly) (like remaking the sheets sides-to-middle, to squeeze a few more years wear out of them. . .)

XCH and I had eighteen months of "couple counselling" about three years ago. . . I think I've learnt more about him in the last six months than in all the 22 years that I've known him. . . more than in all those hours of talking all that time ago (and it does seem a long long time ago now). . . anyhow. . . perhaps he's changed - I think he has. . . (perhaps I listen now? perhaps I hear, too? maybe I didn't do either back then? I tried - I know I ought to still try now - my best - I always try my best). . . also, of course, we are not the near-children we were when we met. . . and, of course, we have children of our own. . .

we'll always have those children between us, even tho there are other kinds of things between us now

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distances mainly
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but like I said, I really ought to be asleep
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needs must, and all that

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I hope you sleep/slept with angels,
dear reader,
and thank you for keeping me company tonight
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X