half asleep in frog pajamas

well, not quite frog pajamas (that was actually a reference to one of my favourite authors - ever read Still Life With Woodpecker? no? you should!)

and the caffeine and nicotine entering my system is knocking out the half asleep

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I'm curled up next to The Teen (who's only just recovering) (but is recovering) (thank goodness - he's been really sick, poor boy) on the sofa in the new house, he's watching another of his favourite programmes - Deadliest Catch, about fishermen risking life and limb for a catch of lobster or crab in the Arctic seas (if you need an image, look below at the Kaffe Fasset tapestries!); XCH went off before dawn to a meeting and I came round to make sure that Middle One and Mini-Teen woke up, dressed, had breakfast and were kissed and told they are loved as they leave the house - a proper send off for their school days
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it's been a busy week for me - mainly household chores and childcare and what might seem to be ordinary stuff to a lot of people (with the exception of my divine art class! far from ordinary) but for me it's a HUGE accomplishment. . .
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. . .five good days in a row, slotting back into the normal routines of the everyday, building up a track record with XCH that I can be relied upon to cope and not let anyone down
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I have had the odd moments when
I could feel the old sensations of panic and anxiety rising
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I have been on the verge of being
very very scared
by the thought of my future
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but, right now, right here, I feel ok

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and that is good enough for the moment

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good enough is good enough
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have a good Friday, y'all
treats in the side bar
(requests taken,
if anyone would like
something else!)