being

pick as sweet, any sweet - go on. . .
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I'm feeling slightly frivolous today -
but only slightly, so I'm not going to overdo it

more nightmares last night, including the worst one I could have - maybe it's cleared the air tho, a little like a fresh morning after a night of thunderstorms which followed a hot and humid, muggy day

for the people who wonder if it's to do with the drugs, I think it is - I've been having the nightmares since I was put on the new medication (I did tell the nursing staff when I was in hospital, but they said if I didn't wake up screaming it wasn't a nightmare) (bollocks to that); also, I have come off the sleeping pills that my brain was/is addicted to - night five last night without it - so perhaps that's affecting things too

interestingly, without it (the sleeping drug) my body seems to wake up more naturally, rather than after six-and-a-half-hours; thus I had to set my alarm for this morning, in order to make sure I was up in time to meet Mini-Teen and take her into school

however, because of the nightmare, I had woken up an hour before the alarm went off; so I started rereading The Diving-Bell and The Butterfly in the early light, instead of drifting back into some kind of fitful sleep

if you recall,
this is the book that the delightful Tom lent me

have you read it? I haven't seen the film, so I can't comment on that - but the book is a total delight, despite its sadness; amongst many gifts, it has given me a new method of getting to sleep: I turn the light out and let my mind flutter off somewhere enjoyable, as Jean-Dom does in the book (I'm fully aware that he had no choice about this, whereas I do); it's almost like "choosing" happiness

which I didn't think was possible, and I'm not able to keep up the whole time, but am gradually learning is a possibility

at the other end of the morbidity scale, I've only had one evening in the last two weeks where I wanted to just end it all there and then; that night I went to bed early, instead of spending hours working myself into more and more of a deadend

so, pick a Love Heart - any Love Heart
and pass the message on to the person who makes you happy,
I'm very glad you have someone that does

later we could play
Love Heart Bingo
(I'll do it in order of comments, alright?
if anyone is going to make any today, that is)