resolved

there've been a lot of things on my mind this week

I won't bore you with the list, but a list there was and I have been trying to work my way thru the items, one by one - not necessarily in any order, despite my urgent/important grid

you remember that one, from all that personal development and management training the powers that were used to think so important back in the late 80s, early 90s? (perhaps they still do - but I don't know anymore) I can't work out how to do the four little boxes, but they were:

URGENT & IMPORTANT/IMPORTANT NOT URGENT
NOT IMPORTANT BUT URGENT/NEITHER IMPORTANT NOR URGENT

if you see what I mean. . .

so the missing filling that I need replacing in my cracked molar is important and getting more urgent, but sorting out the plumber to mend the drip that is now a leak is urgent even tho it's not really important, the electrics neither urgent nor important but they need doing at some stage

and so it goes on,
but I promised not to bore you with it all

there was something VERY important and VERY urgent that's been on the list for three weeks now - delayed for various reasons out of my control, so I just had to sit back and wait (and worry, as I do); delayed again because of the snow earlier this week and rearranged to this morning

well, it's sorted now;
resolved; satisfactorily,
for all concerned

and I'm almost elated; no, actually, I'm not elated, I'm just very very very very relieved. . .

perhaps I shouldn't/needn't have worried so much in the first place? what is the purpose of worrying? does it have an evolutionary benefit, above and beyond raising one's adrenalin levels to the/a fight or flight decision? I doubt it
.

I have/need to learn to worry less, I really do - all my worries about this specific issue came to nought; they didn't help me think thru the issues any more clearly than my initial response. . .
.

. . .my initial response, which provided my course of action this morning for dealing with this issue, was the right one: I should have trusted my judgement, perhaps
.

I should have trusted
.

(-:

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I'm reading an excellent book on living with grief at the moment, it's not totally relevant to my situation and I probably should have read it 18 years ago (I so hate Valentine's Day and it's only a week away now) but it is helping me, hugely
.

putting a lot of things into
perspective
.

one thing that I hadn't appreciated was just how long things take for you/one (well, me) to get over - initially the whole thing is so huge you (me) can't comprehend it all, but gradually you (me) start to take it all in
.

a little like an elephant task - remember that one? how to you eat an elephant? in small bites. . .
.

poor elephant
.

)-:

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and it reminds me of the "wave" from earlier this week - the one that threw me back onto that beach - how just when you think it's safe to go back in the water, something still manages to bite you (oh, I'm mixing up all my metaphors now) (but I don't care) (!)
.

and now, here I am again, dipping my toes in again, hoping to be able to let go again. . .
.

one thing sorted from the list, one thing ticked. . . one thing to be able to let go of. . .
.

one thing less to worry about!
.

(-:
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I hope you have fewer things to worry about today
than you did yesterday. . .

even if it's only ONE THING