ILTV, still, listens to some good advice

the nursing staff here are amazing

different views,
different lives,
different opinions,
different ages,
different backgrounds

but consistent to the last wo/man
"look after number one:
you're not at you're best,
how can you give your best to your children?"
I have recently decided that I do not want to be dead: I want to be alive; this presents a whole host of what I had previously considered to be unsolvable problems, which I now have to solve

the first is how to look after myself

properly, I mean. . .

. . .so I don't end up in the state I ended up in only a very short while back (I think I spared you most of it, dear reader; and if I didn't, I certainly didn't intend to share it) (my blogs always start off trying to be about the good things in life - of which there are many - but you can never escape the truth, can you, and it has an unpleasant habit of creeping in unannounced and jumping out of a dark corner at you in a totally unexpected fashion) (perhaps the trick is to forget one's carbon footprint, and leave the lights on full blast so there are no dark corners)

anyhow, I shan't rabbit on* (which reminds me - the first thing I'm going to do when I get out of here, or wherever I'll end up next, is watch Local Hero) (have recommended that film to three people recently and keep thinking "if I like it that much, why don't I watch it more often?")

if you haven't seen it it's well worth renting or buying

and talking about watching films I have some fantastic celebrity gossip which I am not privy to share with you

but then, we agreed the other day I'm not going to stoop that low; however "low" I've been personally, I wouldn't go so low as to ever ever ever invade someone's privacy or disclose something about someone else's private life

that's not what a blog is for, is it

*and I'm not quite as sad a bunny as I was a while ago!


Sorrow said...

i found myself just nodding along as i was reading, so hard to focus on the light, the good things, the happy things. Life is not a happily ever after.
(BOY do I know it)
But you have to have a place where thats where you really try and be light and love.
okay I am on a bit of a ramble...
a very very short night, and a very very long day..

Gordie said...

"I can't help but think standin' up here
in all this applause and gazin' down
at all the young and the beautiful.
With their questioning eyes.
That I must above all things love myself.
I must above all things love myself."
(Nick Cave)

mig bardsley said...

I'm so happy to read this I don't know what else to say.
Just so glad you've decided you want to be alive. Since I also want you to be alive :)

Well, I read somewhere once that problems aren't such a bad thing because solving them is such a good thing. And life is full of them because that's how life is. And solutions come with the problems. Something like that. It struck me quite forcibly at the time!

Perhaps the way to look at it is to choose some alternative states that would work for you and then the problem would be settling which ones to work for?
I'll shut up now :)

Love and hugs

'Shot said...

"I have recently decided that I do not want to be dead: I want to be alive"

I don't cry often, but that did it for me. It's a very good thing!

Anonymous G said...

Sort of like mig, i don't know what to say! only she went ahead and said it so nicely...

i'm reaching out and hugging you!!!

Z said...

I have found it vital to cherish and be kind to myself - and laugh. There's always something to laugh at, even if it's just taking myself too seriously.

Gordie said...

Things I've learned from blogging that I wish I'd kbown years ago, No 37 (collect the set).

I wanted to be alive.
I just didn't want to be in a state.


Steg said...

"I have recently decided that I do not want to be dead: I want to be alive" is the best news I've had this year. Seriously.


Anonymous said...

Add me to Rimshot and Steg. And have some chilli chocolate!

katherine. said...

me too....with all the rest...


Mel said...

(((((((((( ILTV )))))))))))))))