what have I done to deserve this. . ."
and then segueing into songs from my favourite album of theirs, the one they did with that woman who was in Caberet. . .
you know, her. . .
"if this is a prison,
I'm in it with you. . ."
you know exactly who I mean, sure you do. . .
I'm here because I overdosed
and took the lot
XCH came over and found me (am not quite sure why) and took me round to his, where I woke - slightly confused - in the middle of the night - I really hadn't expected to be awake that third time, you see, I knew that much - and then found his very sharpest Sabbatier and the sharpener and ran a bath and then sat in it slicing my wrist up
I passed out eventually
I don't really remember the rest, other than the fact The Good Doctor had already suggested ECT as the treatment for depression when others (talking and tablets) have failed
I'm not proud of myself, I mean my children need me right? and in a slightly better state than this, probably; and might do, for some years to come; but quite clearly something was not right, so I guess something needs fixin'
TGD had mentioned ECT to me quite a while ago, but as a layperson it sounds a little scary, doesn't it
I mean, all most of us know about ECT is from watching OFOtC'sN, right?
. . .which is a little like saying all most of us know about looking after a hotel over winter is from watching The Shining!
. . .and all we really know about The Devil is from watching The Witches of Eastwick!
. . .and all we know about OCD is from watching As Good As It Gets!
the media has a lot to answer for, doesn't it?
(and yee g*ds, I lurve that man!)
so, stick with me people and I'll tell you all about it
that's a promise. . .
it might not be pretty, it might not be as tuneful as you've come to expect from yours truly - but it will be honest and accurate and if it works, I will share my happiness with you!
for starters, I'll tell you this - just before you pass out under the general anaesthetic, they tuck the blanket back from your feet. . .
why? I asked my lovely resus nurse
because, says he, for it is a he, they need to know when they've got the current right and the first things to start fitting are your toes. . .