POST SCRIPT

remember the fact I don't read instruction manuals? (altho I just did, mel! to download some photos from my phone for you, I even have the cable and all - but it is way too complicated for me right now, but I'll be working on it) but remember I did read the leaflet that came with my medication. . .


do what is says on the tin*,
people

(*Ron Seal, mel, you'll have to ask The Brit)

which in this case meant do not have a rather large G&T because your kids are kicking off an hour before your ex is turning up to collect them, having forgotten that only moments before you took your anti-anxiety meds. . .

I'll spare you the gory details, but nevertheless a short stay in the head place reminded me of three things:

  • why I don't want to end up there again
  • why I like where I live (even tho it's rented and I can't paint the walls the colour I want to)
  • how great my current head doctor is
so, when we talked he told me I had done the right thing (going to the head hospital because I didn't think I had anywhere else to go) (not the G&T) (one lives and learns, eh)

hmmmmmm

and he told me he was actually really pleased I did what I did, and not to feel guilty or ashamed about it. . . I hate Friday nights; I have to find some kind of strategy to cope with Friday nights; he said I'm not mad or going insane, which was a relief because I'd told him I thought I was just full of grief and probably severely depressed and struggling but doing my best; he was slightly irritated that CH had gone on his business trips (two sides of the globe in one week, poor guy) as he was supposed to be my back-up - but a man has to do what a man has to do, sometimes. . . and let's face it the Head Doc talked to me on a Saturday afternoon, so so much for his family weekend. . .

but I won't bang on about it; and won't be drinking alone on a Friday night again for a very long time: that bit I take full responsibility for


*

I'm not feeling very well; so I'm heading back to the hospital; and I'll catch up with you when I'm a little better

xx
Jacqueline

13 comments:

Rimshot said...

I shall keep you in my prayers and think very good thoughts for you.
{ { { { { I,S,LTV } } } } }

Feel better soon.

Mel said...

I was a bit worried when you told us about the shake, rattle and roll that was going on....I'm glad you're letting them help you.

*sending loads of peacefilled, warm, chalked full of love thoughts*

And I know you know I really mean that....

(((((((( ILTV ))))))))))

Gordie said...

OK - do what you need to do x

Vicus Scurra said...

We'll all come to visit you in hospital. One grape each.
Does this mean there is no one out there to nag me about not updating my blog?

mig bardsley said...

((((((((((I)))))))))))
I'll be thinking of you. And hoping they help a lot.
Lovely days will be back and when you're better you'll be able to enjoy them again.
xxx

Dave said...

I'm going away myself, for similar reasons, so don't worry that you won't be here to comment on my blog.

Steg said...

What Mel said - I'm glad you're letting them help you.

Take care. If good thoughts coming from others help at all then you've got a good start.

*hugs*

Mel said...

*sending more warm, peacefilled thoughts*

*and a bouquet of little white daisey's with bright yellow tulips*

*AND a Snoopy colouring book with a box of 64 crayons!*

Mel said...

(AND sending a hug to Dave (((Dave))) )

ziggi said...

thinking of you lovie
xxxxxxxxxxxxx

fathorse said...

Be well soon ILTV :) Logs of hugs and wet kisses from fathorse xxxxxxxxxxx
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Mel said...

Yep--I like the HD.
And I like the deciaion you made.
AND I like the prospect of shaking the by-jeepers outta himself to ask about Ron Seal. (*chuckling* I'm thinkin' he'll be grateful--the sun's out and I KNOW he wouldn't wanna miss it!)

*hugshugshugsandmorehugs*

mig bardsley said...

Oh very well done. ((((I))))
And I'm glad you like where you live :) And extra glad the HD is a good one - a good HD is above any number of precious stones, even rubies :) A quite remarkable and valuable being.